Dear Self…

Dear Self,

I believe in you! Keep going.
Remember that you are destined for greatness.
Most importantly, radiate love and grace.
Always ~

Love,
Me (2022)

Give Love Even To Those Who Hurt You…

It’s easy to love someone who does good things to you, someone who will respond and smile when you first say “hello”. Someone who will always be there for you, to hug you, comfort you when needed, or someone who loves you at all. But what if that someone is not the one you expect them to be?

How can you possibly love someone who hates you that much? Someone who spread rumors and talk rubbish things when you are not around? Someone who never likes anything about you? How will you love them?

I’ve spent many hours crying over the things that I cannot accept, struggling to understand why these people whom I thought were my friends, my 2nd family, people who once said they care, never really liked me? They hate my existence. And up till now, I cannot understand why because they were all giving me their best sweet smiles and words every time I’m with them.

My heart breaks and for few minutes, I knew, it’s covered with hatred – rage. I wanted to return evil for evil. I wanted to unleash every ounce of pent-up anger. But a good friend of mine said “we do not live for ourselves but for others.” Hence, advised me to love my enemies and pray for them instead.

As I contemplate the words he shared, I was led to read these verses:

“But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.” [Luke 6:27-28]

This is one of the most difficult commands in the scripture. It requires too much – forgiveness, understanding, patience and love. And to be honest, I cannot do it alone. Apart from Christ, it’s impossible for me to love those kind of people.

But… who am I not to forgive them and not do what Jesus asked me to do?

After all, I don’t want my heart to be corrupted by the ugliness and bitterness of life. Yes, there are times we will feel it but it’s up to us if we will entertain or reject what Satan is throwing out on us. That will define who we are.

I want my life to be characterized by the grace of God, His unconditional love, not only for those who accepted Christ but to all. To all. Meaning to say, I shouldn’t be picky who to love. I should love not only the people who love me but also to the people who hate me. I should understand why such thing happens and have more patience to deal with it. God has a purpose and I know His plan will always be the best as long as I submit to Him.

So yes, even if it’s hard, I should give love even to those who hurt me… (of course, with God’s help)  ❤

F O R E V E R G R A T E F U L

Thousand words I wanna say
Here in my mind day after day
Can’t wait to see you in a place
where I can thank you face to face

In times of trouble, doubt takes part
A sinner me is in my heart
But like a father to his child
You stay forever by my side

Sometimes you give and take away
With that, I do things on my way
But later on I realized
Without you, I’ll be paralyzed

To you, my Lord, I give thanks for all
For rescuing my burning soul
For teaching me to trust in you
For giving me life that is so new

Gratitude is what I have
for showing your unending love
Grace and peace that I have got
Which placed me to a joyful spot

B A C K

“And so I’m back… but this time with a grieving heart…”

THAT! was supposedly my “comeback” intro after all the terrible things happened to me last month. I experienced deep feelings of loneliness and emptiness caused by the people I love the most. And as I soak myself into the pool of my own pity-party, God opened my eyes once again to see the richness of His overflowing grace.

You have probably heard this adage: God moves in mysterious ways. Well it is true because not all things in life will work as glorious as it is. There are times you’ll be in extreme pain, you’ll feel betrayed, you’ll fall down, you’ll be left alone with nothing but that doesn’t mean God is not doing anything for your good. He allows those things to happen because He wanted us to trust in Him alone. He is molding us to become a better person, a beautiful masterpiece. He is preparing us for the bigger things that are on the road. So… all of these are totally meaningful.

I know that I cannot out-run the miseries in life. It will always be there but the good thing is, I know I have God in my life and He will never ever leave me.

So yes, I’m back with…

AMAZING GRACE ❤

He put me into a new place
where my past leaves no trace.

Such good news when He won the case
So together, we will run the race.

Forever I will give you praise
Thank thee for your amazing grace…